I felt that this past few weeks I really drifted away from God... How do I know this? I started getting emotional, lost, and just utterly blank. My devotion time with Him started to get shorter and shorter until I barely had time to do so. I do hate feeling like this. You know, those feelings that makes you feel something is missing. Nothing can fill that empty spot except God Himself. Believe me, I tried. I tried filling it by music, but that wasn't satisfying enough. I tried filling it with TV shows, that didn't do the job. I tried filling with all kinds of internet stuff from social networking to browsing videos around YouTube, yet the void is still there. I tried chatting with my friends (this always cheers me up), but instead, I got insecure while talking. I see how this emptiness inside affects my daily life, and I hated it. I don't want to feel anymore emptiness. Let this blog entry be my seal of declaration that from this hour forward, I will fill that void with God and His love by spending time with Him each and every day.
I wrote a song back in the 11th grade about coming back to His presence:
Back Again
Lost my way from You
Far away from Home
Oh God, I pray
Longing everyday to come back to Your arms and bow down to all that You want...
Oh God
Forgive me that I sinned
Your grace suffice for those who repent
Never again I'll leave
Never again I'll sin freely
Even if I fall, pull me back and make me come back to Your arms and bow down to all that You want...
God pulled me back to Him... This is why I love Him so much... He never lets anyone fall behind. He is a God of second chances. I'm just grateful to have a God who cares and loves. I'm coming back to You, God. I'm back in Your presence...
